Confession: I Commit a Sin

Oh…you were hoping for a list of them? Well…maybe later. I all seriousness, though, I have envy – jealously – I covet – how ever you want to say it – I am jealous of Stacy At Home Moms – Domestic Engineers or whatever the pc term is this year.

Oh, if I could stay at home – there would be minimal soap opera and talk show watching. I would cook, I would clean, I would be in those mom’s groups, I would go to daytime bible study, Shelby would know her multiplication tables – oh wait – She would be HOME SCHOOLED!!! I would study. There would never be dirty laundry – ahhhh life would be perfect.

Wait – before you attack. I so know that the position isn’t all rainbows and rice krispie treats, but there would be things I wouldn’t miss. I would actually go on field trips – if she wasn’t home schooled. We wouldn’t rush been school and practice to get in home work with just enough time to shove a corn dog at her as we walk out the door. I would be able to spend more time at the table – in conversation that Shelby so craves. I would be more patient about homework because we would have more time.

Shelby finishing her Corn Dog and chips dinner  - yeap it's that bad

I wouldn’t stress to get as much laundry as I can get done, done before we have to go to the next practice, game or meeting. Shelby would be able to be involved in the activities she wants and I would be there un-stressed. I am already there, but I little frazzled at the moment.

And Crafts!!! I see women doing crafts with their children – meh…

I wish I had the opportunity, but not so much that I am going to throw a fit to make it happen. I want my family provided for and therefore I work. Maybe someday…maybe not. My mom only stayed at home a year with me – that year rocked remember mom? – and I turned out just fine with her working.

So there – all my stay at home friends – you know who you are. The organized one who never buys anything without a coupon, the two that get to go shopping together while I work and the ones who are oh so talented in so many ways – I AM JEALOUS OF YOU!!! I wish I could say “Get back to work outside of the home, so I will feel better,” but I know that will never happen and I wouldn’t want it to, you all are blessed to have this time. I will continue to think of you – nicely, yes nicely – as I sit at my desk in the 3^rd Floor of and office building and work. Meh.

Wedding Dreams

So, I keep telling myself I will not obsess about wedding planning. This is about JAG and I; not about a party, ceremony, roses, champagne and mini meatball appetizers. I guess in doing this it has caused me to obsess in my dreams.

Woke-up the other night laughing due to a crazy wedding dream that is just so perfect, so I have to share with you. Of course the wedding was stressful. I was walking through the church and saw my groom! I was screamed “No Edward you can’t see me yet.”

Yeap, I said Edward. In my dream JAG turned into Edward Cullen.

This cracks me up because JAG is pretty much revolted by Twilight. I forced him to go see Eclipse with me and he proceed to spend an hour (slightly overdramatic there) telling me how it was good cinematography, but the worst example of vampires.

So there you have it…my sub conscious sees JAG as Edward Cullen. I think JAG is cuter though.