I Wonder, Song for You Saturday

It’s been awhile since I’ve done one of these posts and barely had enough patience to save this for a Saturday. 

As I was mopping floors on Thursday morning this song came on my current favorite pandora station (link below) and left me wishing that I could hit repeat. 

Jesus Christ

You bled Your love, laid down Yourself

And gave me life

In naked shame You hung and You were lifted high

Here I lay in awe and wonder

I am afraid

For no one’s ever sacrificed and loved me this way

So on my face I fall under Your heavy grace

Here I lay in awe and wonder

Those words, if I wasn’t completely tone deaf I would be singing them on the street corners. Can we just take a minute to laugh at the fact that I am so moved by music, but cannot and I mean CANNOT carry a tune to save myself. Be thankful that my husband’s amazing voice drowns mine out on Sunday mornings. 

Anyway, back to these powerful words, the first one to hit me, “in naked shame you hung and you were lifted high.” As Easter quickly approaches those words have such a strong visual, my goal is to live everyday with the thankfulness I feel during lent, so thankful every single day for the love bled for me, for his life he laid down for me. 

Then, “for no one’s ever sacrificed and loved me this way” this hits a core pain and reminds me of something my counselor said to me once, “you may never feel the love you deserve from a human father, your heavenly father will be the one to show you that love and that love with fill in the gaps that you’ve missed from your worldly father.”  I cry, that feeling of sacrifice and pure unconditional love that I’ve only received from my Heavenly Father. 

Random thinking: I really miss Myspace at times like this. Don’t remember how we could place a song on our profile and it would automatically play when you were there? It was the most annoying thing especially when you were trying to sneak on myspace at work, but man, I this would be the song that blare when you came to my profile. 

Again and again I’ve played this song as I’ve sat my desk and worked this week. Many times lifting my hands up to him, many times drawn to tears and every time thanking the Lord for my today. 

Thank you Lord for saving me, thank you for every single day of my life and thank you for loving me through all of it. I am so thankful to feel your heavy grace every single day. 

My favorite Pandora station at this time: http://www.pandora.com/station/2922568543513388101