It is amazing how one little pill twice a day could take me from the walking zombie about to spew to me. Oh how I loving feeling like myself again – just a bit. Actually me and a bit of Dolly Parton – if you have lived you a first trimester you understand what I mean – the sistas are huge – sorry if that is TMI. I have gained eight pounds and a swear seven pounds of that are boobs.
Besides that life is good. Life is really really good like too good to be true. I may just be slightly too hormonal right now, but I really do not think that life as ever been this good at least for me.
The other day on the treadmill I had an awakening – a thought popped in my head that I never really sat and thought about before. This – my marriage, my pregnancy, my life right now – is probably the first time I have ever done something that everyone agreed with – that everyone was excited about. I spent most of my twenties and one awful year of my 30s doing things people didn’t agree with. It was my lot in life to go against the grain. I know I drove my parents crazy doing the opposite of everything they wished for me. I excelled at it – I excelled at the drama. I excelled at making my life one whirl wind catastrophe after another.
Now in my thirty-third year while expecting my second baby I am so relaxed with the lack of drama in my life. I am not saying that I don’t get loud and dramatic – just ask my husband, but I love the peace of doing things that are right because I truly want to do them. As much as I loved doing what people never expected of me in my twenties I love being exactly the way I should be in my thirties.
I love waking up each morning content with my life due to the love and grace shown by God and the love I receive from my husband. The secure feeling of knowing that Shelby ’s laughs are real and she is happiest girl in all the world right now. Things are so good and I am so blessed to have been through my desert, so I can now truly appreciate every morning.
Some may understand this feeling and to that I pass along a little nod. For those of you who don’t have it yet it will come I promise it will come. Keep your head up keep looking forward. I am so glad I did.
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